All My Yesterdays

Yesterday...I was 16 and dating a true to life nice guy

Yesterday...I was around my 17th birthday and still dating the nice guy, but also 'involved' with my closest male friend

Yesterday...my closest male friend decided we shouldn't be 'involved' as more than friends anymore, and my heart brakes for the first time

Yesterday...the nice guy and I mutually dumped each other, but stayed friends

Yesterday...I developed a growing obsession with my closest male friend

Yesterday...senior year was almost over and I met someone new

Yesterday...It's almost Thanksgiving, I'm 18 now and that someone new dumped me, and my heart breaks again

Yesterday...I rebound with a guy I knew before I was allowed to date

Yesterday...He goes back to Mississippi, to his wife, and my heart breaks again

Yesterday...I find out I'm 18.5 and pregnant with the child of a married man, and my heart breaks again

Yesterday...Six days after I turn 19 I give birth to a beautiful son

Yesterday...I find out that my son is sick but the Docs are not sure why

Yesterday...I take my parents up on their offer to raise my son, They'll do better than I'm currently able, but I love him and letting go breaks my heart

Yesterday...That someone new and I get back together and get married, I'm only 19.5

Yesterday...Six rocky months after getting married, I'm pregnant again

Yesterday...At 20.5 I give birth to my daughter, healthy

Yesterday...I've lived in California, Italy, and Virginia, both my husband and I have nearly walked out the door many a time

Yesterday...After our biggest blowout ever, my husband covinces me to stay

Yesterday...We start over, and it's hard, and it hurts, but we do it anyways

Yesterday...We can now go weeks without fighting, where we never could even last a day without fighting before

Tomorrow...We're on the eve of possibly the first year of my life I can look back on with only a minimum of regret, It seems I'm finally climbing out of my yesterday's at 25.5